"You think you got it down and then the moment comes": The certainty of uncertainty in end-of-life decision making.

objectivesSome observers have proposed that physicians may die differently compared with the average patient. Semi-structured interviews with family members of physicians who died offer an opportunity to better understand how patient preferences and wishes are perceived and acted on by family members at the end of life. The decision-making experiences of these family members for a loved one who was a physician may have implications for the lay person at end of life.

methodsThe Johns Hopkins Precursors Study includes individuals who matriculated into the graduating classes of 1948 to 1964 of the Johns Hopkins University School of Medicine. From this cohort, we interviewed 26 family members of physicians who died. Interviews were coded and analyzed using a comparative, iterative process.

resultsWe found that family members of physicians who died described the uncertainty at end of life. This overarching theme was organized into the following: (a) the certainty of uncertainty; (b) the preparation for uncertainty; and (c) brokering of decisions in the face of uncertainty. Despite careful end-of-life preparation by well-informed physicians, family members were still left to broker decisions as they navigated the wishes of the physician and what the family and medical care team believed to be in the best interest of the physician. SIGNIFICANCE OF

resultsOur findings suggest that our family members were not immune to uncertainty. The clinical momentum at the end of life may contribute to challenges faced by patients and family members when brokering decisions. Normalizing uncertainty in medical training and for families may aid in addressing the stress of uncertainty at end of life.